After close to three months of trying to drag, trying to tell myself all this crap is not true, trying to tell myself all this is just a dream and once I am awake , everything will be fine and one day when i woke up i will receive your text, get a busy job and drown myself in work and overtime. One fine day, I have decide to treat myself better, I need to move because time doesn't wait for me.
I got myself a full time job just to distract myself from those memories. Many of you may say this is avoiding. I won't deny. But I think is also a type of facing the truth, at least I don't waste my life away, and to me I think that's a very big step.
After all this time, I think is more important to learn how to face the matter instead of trying to avoid. It maybe hard but no one say it was easy. And after all this months I feel that the time I took to "walk out" was too long. Of course is normal to let your emotions out and take a rest. But too long is not a good thing either, you will just be more negative coz you will have more time to think about all those things and that's when overthinking brings you down. During this time I spend time with my favorite people and get my favorite things done and it does help to distract me.
Nope I didn't write this post to put my blame on others. I am just posting what I myself feel. All this is part of life and we shouldn't stop, coz the time didn't stop for us either. So why not move on?
It maybe funny how it comes from someone that spent so long to move on. But all this is just things that I learnt in this period of time.
"有时候，一个人也可以很好.”-我做到了
Thanks for reading lovelies ;)
