updates

Dear Blogger,

Can't believe the last time i blogged is like close to 5 months ago. There's too much to be update on. Alot of things have happened, but also got to learn alot. If you want more in depth updates , you can go to my dayre. Is not very in depth la, but you can get to know what i have been doing.

I dont know how many people is still reading this space, considering the last time i update is super long ago. But if you are reading this now, i wanna say thank you to you, for reading this boring space of mine. :D.

So instead of putting every single thing in details, i will just pick a few highlights of the different months to share with you!

January

i got the confirmation letter of my first job! okay, actually a confirmation letter only , why is it call a highlight right? First is because is a first job. Second, the process is really not easy. I have ike been through hell and heaven before getting it right. Once you think it is smooth, some shit will just happen, like IT issues, & i was really glad i got the confirmation letter, and managed to clear all the back log in feb :)!! Really thankful to the people around me for supporting!!


February

The highlight of feb is of course CNY, which i wont be posting any pictures because all if on my IG/FB, So go and look it up if you are interested!

March

There isnt any highlights in march, but is the month which LKY passed away. i didnt really do a thankful post for him, but there is a short one on my dayre,

April

WenSiew came to sg, and me being me actually took like two days leave to accompany her, also managed to explore a few places myself, and we even went night cycling!!!

May

It is a month filled with holiday trips, one in malacca and one in korea. Which i will be doing separate post for it soon !!!!

For now, thanks for reading!!! <3

HELLO 2015

Dear Blogger,

It is already 4 days into 2015 now. Too busy to even give a proper update! Somehow I did quite detailed post on my DAYRE already, but i think think this space also need a 2014 post since at the start i did many post, so i should have a closing? Maybe I can do a New Year Resolution thingy?? Sounds good uh? ^^

2014... Actually I didn't do much? I mean I only attend school, have fun, and got a proper job at the end. It is somehow like a roller coaster ride. At the start of the year, I was really at my highest, nothing brought me down, I was really enjoying. But when I became single, i thought everything will be easy to "delete" but i was really wrong this time round ??? Having to face all those shit, I brought a SMILE to my cousin's wedding, I don't know how but I did, and I lasted for two days. (nope, i am not blaming him, i am blogging it right here cox this is part of 2014). So I thought it will be easy since after two days, I haven't even teared. I was wrong. He never left my mind. But when i wake up everyday i tell myself "i must do something meaningful, i shouldn't waste my life away" & i did, i found myself a job, i put in whatever i could, & is gonna be three months soon!

Nobody will stop the time for you, you have to learn how to get up. Despite the fact that, he still affects my life every now and then,but i found out that i don't think about him that much anymore so it should be a good sign? There isn't anyone that you cant live without, is about the angle guys!
okay, so this is the thing that brought me to the bottom of the roller coaster. Other than this thing that happened, there are also many highlights of 2014!

- Because of the incident, i get to know who is really there.
- Family is still the most important people in the world.
- I completed my Dip!
- I went official overseas with friends.
- I got a nice job and met really nice colleagues.
- Because of them being nice, I got to celebrate Christmas for once and got alot of gifts and is one of the best Christmas i ever had.
- I went for the first company dinner.
- I managed to persuade my parents to let me dye bright colored hair considering the fact that they are quite traditional.
- I went to the first countdown party in my life and BigBang attracts me and get to be the first k-pop singer to be in my music list!

Actually not alot of highlights also considering that alot of people's life is more colorful than mine!

New Year Resolution.....

Actually i dont have them, i am happy with my current life!

But if there must be....

> World Peace, less disasters, be it natural or planes or whatever.
> Family to be healthy and happy
> Friends to be happy and healthy and dont find me irritating. HAHAA(just kid), be happy and healthy!!!
> Work to be smooth!
> Able to save more and spend less

I think thats all?

Other than all this, I WANNA LOOK FORWARD TO 2015! Hope it will be filled with joy, adventures and exploration!^^

OKAY THANKS FOR READING!!!! Hope your 2015 will be awesome!

DECEMBER

Decided to change the template to give my blog a new look! No la , this is not a new look, coz previously i had something similar to this. but nowadays i think my life is too dull , so i decided to add some colours to my dull life and being cheeky at the fonts :)

SO IS THIS NICE? of course it is. 自问自答也是不错的!

Haven't been doing much fun stuff , also haven't been having exciting life coz bff is out of town and I was too busy. When I say busy , is really hell. Can you imagine i overtime for the whole damn week and even went back on a sat? & is not half day is until like 3:30PM ????? And my usual work ends at 5:30!!!! Even I also cant believe that I OT for so long!!!!

By the time I end work , I will be too dead to go anywhere but home, which explains my boring post in dayre!

Family is off to some island , and i am left all alone in sg, need to do my own laundry and housework, settle my own meals. BUT YEAH I SURVIVED !!!! CANT WAIT FOR THEM TO BE BACK THIS EVENING. 

Life is so boring and tiring nowadays.....I need so getaway.

This post is everywhere..... but before i go , some photos for all of you !!!

Thanks for reading <3

New Life

So after living the rotten life , the worst life I have ever lived. The life that makes me realize how stupid I am for holding things in place even when it already show signs that it will not hold , how much i need to move but I am constantly stuck in the same place yet the other part of me is telling me I need to move.

After close to three months of trying to drag, trying to tell myself all this crap is not true, trying to tell myself all this is just a dream and once I am awake , everything will be fine and one day when i woke up i will receive your text, get a busy job and drown myself in work and overtime. One fine day, I have decide to treat myself better, I need to move because time doesn't wait for me.

I got myself a full time job just to distract myself from those memories. Many of you may say this is avoiding. I won't deny. But I think is also a type of facing the truth, at least I don't waste my life away, and to me I think that's a very big step. 

After all this time, I think is more important to learn how to face the matter instead of trying to avoid. It maybe hard but no one say it was easy. And after all this months I feel that the time I took to "walk out" was too long. Of course is normal to let your emotions out and take a rest. But too long is not a good thing either, you will just be more negative coz you will have more time to think about all those things and that's when overthinking brings you down. During this time I spend time with my favorite people and get my favorite things done and it does help to distract me. 

Nope I didn't write this post to put my blame on others. I am just posting what I myself feel. All this is part of life and we shouldn't stop, coz the time didn't stop for us either. So why not move on? 

It maybe funny how it comes from someone that spent so long to move on. But all this is just things that I learnt in this period of time. 

"有时候，一个人也可以很好.”-我做到了

Thanks for reading lovelies ;)

Short , S H O R T

Short update. 

Life is as usual , filled with work, piled with OT. 

Filled with thinking of you, misses. 

It's been two month, and I have not move a single step. WELL DONE PEI NEE. 

Tonight I even drank. AWESOME . 

"From the day you are gone, you probably took away the other side of me" 

And yes, drinking is one of the many examples. 

“伤心的人比较快醉”-我就是那个例子

Thanks for showing me sometimes drinking does solve problems. 

This is not even a proper update, but I don't care, this is my space........

This must be the worst photo I am putting on this space. 

Not drunk yet, just looking damn cui.

Difficult

听到你的消息就好像是把埋葬好的东西再挖出来然后再想办法埋在别的地方。。。。。

如果当初我们都不放弃，我们又多了一个月。。。。。

你走了，走了一个月。。。。。想你的时候还是会拿出你自己亲手做的卡片，全世界只有一张的。。。。。

看了你写的承诺，卡上的内容，心又痛了，泪也流了。。。。。

我不是已经放手了吗，为什么还会这样？

Lost

不知不觉已经三个星期了。。。。。

Everything felt so yesterday, but is alr 3 weeks and is just like 5 more days to the 4th week.

It still hurt so bad, looking at the things you gave on different occasions.......

Trying so hard to live by..... But the time is barely moving and is so slow. 

I didn't know just by re reading a card made by you can bring back so much, yet I can't , can't stop reading it. 

Is the one and only DIY thing you did for me, and it meant so much. You wrote so much things on it. Why didn't you fulfill them. 

3 weeks felt like 3 months. 

Every single things I do , I cant help but to relate it back to you........

我们都停在原地了，谁要来拉我一把。

谁能告诉我，下一步要往哪走？

失去了你，我已经不知道要怎么走了。。。

This time I am really lost.......... 

Why?